To new beginnings. Cheers.

I told myself I wouldn't make any emo-like journals. Don't want to fall to a level like that, it's only a destructive trap that would make the healing process worse.
But on the flip side, the ability to vent your thoughts and feelings onto a sheet where its no longer bottled up wreaking havoc on my little brain, could also be a blessing.

what makes it more comfortable writing it here, is I don't think many people actually read this twaddle.

That said; I hate who I am.
I feel I have done things that I can never undo.
I have said things, I can never take back.
I have wasted so much of my time, doing things that now amount to nothing.
I have lost track of great friends.

The worst thing though, is that I have this bad habit of blaming myself for everything. Thinking I am never good enough. I have let this thought pattern dominate me into becoming what I am.

Always hooked on the question "Why?"
Why did that happen? Why couldn't I see it coming?
Always hooked on "What if?"'s
What If I had done it differently? What if I was better? What if I did/didn't do this/that?  

Its a destructive path.

But I don't want that anymore. No more blaming myself for it. No more crying over my flaws, failures, and lost time. I used to be better than that, and I've not decided to try to be again. I have decided I -WILL- be again.

The question I now ask myself is, What shall I do now. One step at a time, I will rebuild. I will live.
To my friends who have stayed by my side throughout all of this. You are the most loyal friends anyone could ever possibly ask for. One day, I wish there will be a way for me to pay you back for your support and love.




Now. Time to start again;

Hello everyone. My name is Adam. Also known as Skribbl. Welcome to my dA page. Soon to expand into an empire.
Here's to the future, to realizing the truth, to healing, and to new beginnings. Cheers~